Something that shouldn't happen....

You know what?? i thought you really understand me....But,sometimes i dunno what will happen and everything will turn upside down.I thought everything is getting better but i'm just heart broken. I have been crying non-stop.Yes..just give me time to change myself.I'm not a puppet where you just turn on and i start moving. Give me time..will you?? Yes...i know whatever you wrote in your blog is pointing to me. I'm the one. I got every single thing that you wrote. And i promised to myself not to ask you anything about your blog. I don't wanna create anymore problem. Today you make me think that>>> i should have just be myself...Why the hell i changed?? Mmie being forever alone would have make YOUH a happier person and it's freaking hard for me now...I'm giving you a lot of problems...I'm the one that take everything seriously and don't think twice before saying anything... And now i don't even have the guts to tell you to leave me...let me go...It won't make any difference to youh..But for me?? How i expect people to understand me when i,myself couldn't understand my own self yet!!!I love youh a lot kay....I am matured enough to think about things but i'm just not letting it out...You got that? If you wanna see the real me,i can..but forget about me smiling and laughing and being happy....You wanna see Mmie like that? And yeah... your words really kill me today..:)...hahaha...hate....i burst out crying till i got terrible headache.....walao,~~kata-katamu mencucuk hatiku macam sebilah pisau!! I gotta heal it soon....Ermmmh...I still love youh no matter what Jaan<< that's the reason it is so hard for mmie.....

:(

Jaan,yesterday you got so busy till you didn't even text me properly...Busy online.. ish...i miss youh know...
Felt #forgotten. Never mind it's okaay. I won't disturb.. Take a chill pill. But i still cried>> the only way i'll feel better..:D

piGlet!

hey,you know what?! writing your book always bring tears in my eyes.....Ish...Gonna finish it soon and give youh on Valentine Day with that small little gift that i bought.....Hoho...I can't wait for it!!!...I wish i can keep it with me...Yo,so much of things that i was keeping with myself was revealed in that book....Have fun with it piggyh!!

:D

It was a great day celebrating Karti's Bday even we don't have any plan at first....haha..had fun with jokes around ..A superb get together after so long as it is really hard for four of us to be together at the same time ryte now...It was an awesome day...Love you guys...

AikS....

Haha..Now this really make me ~smilewide~

Interesting,,,,

Hey i dunno why but i just love Pon and Zi...i dunno why but they are so freaking cute....Just love them....:D :D

And i was introduced to this through my friend,Tash....Haaha,she used to draw this Pon and Zi in class... and Bee will ask her help when i got angry with her...and drawn in sticky notes,it will come flying to me just to say sorry...And it will definitely make me feel good..## Sweet memories and thnx guys for all the fun we had together...

  Soon,i'll be back kay...No mood to blog these days.....

Miss You Crazzily....

Listening to Tujhe Bhula Diya again and again and ended up crying every time thinking of youh...I m missing youh every second yaar...You got no idea bout it....

Something Random...

I did all of it with youh..:)

Still waiting....

Reminded me oh.."Don't ever write on your hand!!!" haha..

Yeap..I'm scared....

Always :D

My favourite type.. one day i'll have it....

I do dance when i'm alone if i'm happy....

Ish..:( Missing You a Lot....

Or Do You beb??? 

Okkay..i might not know you that well,but i'm trying my best aite?!
But i'll be by your side whenever you need Mmie...
I only know one thing....
that I Love Youh More Than You Love Me..:D

Yeap!!

Miracle!!

Haha...nowadays i'm doing miracle..Trying to control emotions..and the good thing is,it's kindda working.So,motivation to myself>>>> Keep up the good work Mmie....Even sometimes you will ask me back about it. And it's not lying kay..I don't lie and please don't hate me..I'm just controlling..:D..See..And All Iz Well aite? :D

Hair!!

One day,we will do this guys!!! :D Then,we have to be together no matter where we go!! ChuuN aite??

Oopsy...

Haha...was having fun commenting on fb with LOL....He is such a funny guy...Suddenly he reminded me of our school days..How he used to irritate,annoy and make me angry at first when he sat beside me,then slowly i get use to it...Joke all the time...We always create drama in the class..The whole row,four of us are the drama-makers..Haha..Till he became my hubby for some reasons...Oh Gawd..Tash and Bee behind all that Hubby thingy!! He always make me angry plus laugh..Unfair to him that he alwiz ended up getting scold from teacher and Jaan for that..Whatever it was,i just realised that he had tried to make me smile and laugh all the time even when there was a moment when i was crying coz fought with jaan and he was trying to make me okay..But of coz i won't give a damn at that time..So sorry for that..But yeah..I had lots of fun sitting beside you for a year..*But you are always a hot topic for gossiping in my group..But that is a different story..As a friend,you are a funny character that can bring smile in people's face..:D

Always have.....

!@#$%^&*

Holy cow... thats what best friend mean to her??! What i can say is you are so strong that you can bare all that and still wants her in your life..Even how you hate a person which was your best friend once upon a time,saying all that can hurt you more actually...Even how i hate a person,if that person used to be a very special one in my life,i won't be able to say all that..They will always remain a special one...And i mean BEST FRIEND....not just friend... How dare she say all that to you??!! Ish...

Great!!

Yeap magic do happen sometimes!!:D
 It's was a great beginning of the year where i spend the whole day with you...Thnx a lot...That's how i wanted...No fights..No probs...Just Us with lots of fun all the time..Like how we  used to be....Just be barfi...AGreat and Wonderful day!!!...Love youh Jaan...

~HaMeShA BeeMmie~

Something from my heart........<3

Someone i met few months ago....

That changed my life entirely.....

Someone who taught me how to love....

And the one who gave a nick name to me....

And people start knowing me as...

GuMMiE...

Do you know Meh Tumse Kitna Pyar Karti Hoon??

Bohuth ...and Tum Soch Bhi Nahi Sakti...

And btw,start improving my hindi just for you....

But Why am i writing it here??

Tumko Maalum Hai Naa Kyun....

Kyun Ki..Mmie pagal hogayi...

Like you...

hahax..

you win my heart by doing crazzyh stuffs....

Nobody can be like you yaar....

Yeah...yeah... i know....

the great gal that is always...:D

You make mmie to fall for you....

I can do anything just to spend some time with you....

You Rock my lonely world JaaN....

I can just tell you whatever i want to share....

You're the first one for that....

And the most funniest thing ever....

I started being so emotional....

A girl that never bother about others and had never cry for any of her friends before...

learned how to cry....

A girl that was all by herself...

Starts laughing and talking non-stop and joking around......

You know KyuN??

Kyun Ki there is Someone like Tum that now exist in her life now...

And started being Jealous when you are with 'someone' and all.........

NOBODY WANNA SEE US TOGETHER....

Hate It!!!

Used to love that song but not after that day...

Gggrrhhh...

And will listen to whatever you say even i don't get it sometimes...

CoZ i love you that way....

You know something that reminds me right now??

Remember the day when accidentally you ter'cucuk LoL's penknife on my finger when i was trying  to stop you playing with it??

Oouch....

Yeap it was hurting..

but...

the moment you grabbed my hand without thinking and ran to washroom....

i was just like....

~~Ookay i'm not dying yet...~~

But,You being so caring and  loving make me so >>>>Speechless<<<<

And not only that...

There are so many times when you were there to hold my hand when i'm helpless......

Then our first big fight.....

You pranked me and I just left Bio tuition without hugging you......

"sweet Kirthana"...

I'll never forget how i discovered it was you....

Gawd...Shock of my Life!!!

Came back and cried a lot...

hahahaaha.....

Then our second fight....

Chamber...

I disappeared from class after you scolded me in front of her....

Ishy...

And when i came....

When i looked eye-to-eye with you...

I started crying...

~AllThisSmallSmallFightsMakeMieToLoveYouMoreJaan~

Haha...and you will end up doing all this on my hand....

Or

Some Love Notes written on sticky notes will come flying to me...

Which i have filled up my #love bird bottle with all the small notes......

And when i'm angry with you

 or

 i miss you so much when we don't sit together in class...

i ended up doing this kindda stuff>>>>

And i Remembered i wrote a short non-sense Hindi poems~Holy Cow~ at that same time in bio lab......

Dunno what i crapped there...

It's with you...If you're keeping it.....

Hey Jaan..

My First love Letter was to you...

12 pages that hurt my hand writing it day and night....

Secretly...

That one you keeping Naa??

Aiks...

Someone did cook for me for the first time actually...

Love it! Love it! Love it!

Again you're the first one...

Break Ke Baad smiley breakfast style...

As i wanted...

And she did....

YuMMiE...

Actually there is lotz and lotz to talk about you....

It's never ends...

You taught Mmie what Friendship really mean...

Friends Forever do exist when i met you.....

Coz i made most memories with you...

Which is always in my DiL...

Meh Tumse Bohuth Pyar Karti Hoon.....<3

But all these posts are just to say...

Thank You ...For existing in my world and for making your own space in my heart...

My small,tiny,little alveollisss i mean...:D

I Love youh > Youh love mmie kay....

Happy New Year Jaan....

And I just hope that I'll be able to wish it to you on all the years to come....

I wanna grow old with you yaar....

Love youh so much Piggyh....

MuaXx...:):):)

~Hamesha and Forever~

2013..A New Beginning...

IT'S TIME FOR THE NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!!!!!...2013 pls pls be kind to me...:)
There is a list for me to follow in this new year. Hope i will be able to change myself with it...*Fingers-crossed*
And here it is.....
#Stop fighting with youh...
#Grow up...
#Stop being stubborn and listen to others....
#Keep calm and don't get angry easily...
#Try to understand you more and  don't take things seriously...
#TRY not to cry**
#Keep a smile and always be happy...
#To give more and expect less...
#Not to hurt you anymore...
#To keep my promises i made to youh....
#Be strong....and keep hoping for the best..
#Keep remembering all that little things that make memories between us...
#To keep loving you no matter what....and keep trusting you..<3
#To finish my 143 Kahani's Between Us.:D
#Not forgetting,to loss down weight...hahaha

And that will be the new Mmie...:D..All The Best to Mmie....Rock On!!

It's okay....with a BiG SmiLe on my face..:D

Lolx..was waiting since morning to call you..and even told you i will be calling you at night. And you said okay and asked me to wait. No problem for that. Haiz but then you said you're having headache.You think i'll call you even when you are like that?? Of coz not...So asked you to go and sleep...It's okaay..my 1 hour free call burned again..Anyway,just wanted to wish you Happy New Year..for that only..what's the big deal in that? Can wait till next year..Perhaps..if it's okay with you :D