The End!!!

Okaay it's time to forget everything and move on. Say bye-bye to 2012 and hello to 2013!!!....2012 had been a great year for me even with quite ~few~ problems that i faced... But,dun forget guys..That's life!!..It always leave a lesson for us to improve our life to be a better person in future.Always enjoy the best moment and take the bad one as a lesson.

My Best Moment Of 2012 was>>>>>>>>>>>> Getting closer to Jaan and BooM BooM BooM>>>>My Superb Birthday!

My Worst Moment of 2012 was>>>>>>>>>> That one particular fight and>>>>>>>>>all the fights with youh for no reason...

I'll find courage and try my best to talk to you again....#Hope that all will be alright soon...fingers-crossed...#

You know Who You Are...:D

Sorry JaaN..:(

Hey Jaan..i'm sorry for what happened today kay..What i wanted was just to drive while talking with you.That's why i insisted to send you back home. But i didn't know that we will end up there and you will be late and got scolded for it. Even i don't understand tamil,but i got what you were telling.I don't know whether what i heard and understand was true or not but it make me feel guilty to ask you to stay. And i just forgot that i have to keep my bloody big mouth shut and not to fight with you but somehow i lose control. I'm so sorry kay. But i just feel like we are talking less these days and behaving like strangers. Whenever i make fun or play with you,you will get angry easily.Whenever i call you to sit beside me,you will refuse.Sometimes you don't even seems to bother what i'm talking and all.It is hurting me a lot.Can't we be like before this??I don't know why you are doing that to me...That's why i wanted to spend time with you even as short as 20 minutes to send you back home...Yes,i'm trying to change my behavior but my feelings towards you never change okaay...I'm loving you like before..More than before actually...I just miss how we use to be together and had fun and i cry for that almost everyday even now when i'm typing this...I hope this was our last fight.I'll try not to fight with you anymore. I love youh a lot piggy..Hamesha and Forever..

I do It All The Time....

I try not to cry but I don't feel shy to cry if that is the only way that could make me to express my feelings and make me feel better..and all i need at that time is a hug from you..

~~Relationship~~

kay today i would like to talk about few aspects that are important for a perfect relationship. And for those who knows me closely, they will know what i'm thinking all the time and the reasons i do those stuffs... But it is just my point of view..From the responds that i always get from people,i figured out that i might not be that good in relationship.Problems do occur in any relationship even how hard you try to make it a perfect one.But i always try my best to maintain a relationship that i want to have.

Here are few aspects that i think is important for me for a relationship...
1) Communication...

yep..what we need is just to talk to each other and solve whatever problems that has occured. At least you will know about each other. I did communicate with that person to solve my problems and for me it was really really hard to talk face-to-face. If i couldn't (since i'll end up crying or being silent),i rather to text. But still,if possible,look at each others eyes, understand them and just share your feelings.Personally i think being silent will not help at all.. And at the same it doesn't help neither by yelling or shouting to your partner. Communicate in a way that make them to be comfortable talking and sharing problems with you.

2)Trust...

Trust each other. You build a relationship through trusting each other.When you lose trust towards your partner,your relationship starts fading.Keep your believe with them.After all,you want someone in your life that have trust on you also right? 

3)Honesty...

Be honest in your relationship.Tell the truth and don't ever lie. I won't and even if i do,the opposite one will know it and ask me back about it. So,i never fake a relationship.And even i do hide something from them,it is just for a while and there is always reason why i do that.But at the end,when everything seems okay,i'll be honest and tell them everything about it either by talking face-to-face or by writing or texting...:D..But just be honest..If it's a serious matter,don't wait to tell the truth kay..

4)Love...

most important>> Keep loving and don't give up on each other...Just think about the love both of you had when you start your relationship>>It's so strong that will give you the ability to move on in your relationship...Just keep loving guys no matter what happen...

5)Promise....

If you did make a promise,keep your words! Promises are to be keep and not to be broken. Never let your partner down by breaking your promises.It hurts a lot...

6)Respect and be Loyal...

No matter what you go through,always be with you partner and never leave their side at that moment. You need to go through it together and solve the problem...

7)Stay strong...

You have lotz of memories together. And to have more in future stay strong and keep believing in your relationship..All will be okay..<3....Just HoPe for the best!!!

                                          ~~KeepLovingEachOtherNoMatterWhatHappen~~

2 days ago...Wish you sleep in the middle so that i could talk too...Was so damn bored at the end..:(..anyway,had fun at your home.Wonderful day..:) love youh alwiz piggy..

A Happy Day..:)

Hey it's Christmas guys..I want Santa that can make all my wish dome true....But even without Santa, it turn up to be a superb day for me...I spend almost 6 to 7 hours by just talking and talking with my frens at Jusco. We don't go for a movie or game. We decided just to sit,eat and talk about our lifes. Walao..lots of stuff we shared about.. We had lots of fun. We talked about our routines,our friends,relationship,family,future, life, problems, advise,gossips,old memories, new school and how it changes my life,how place and people changes us,jokes,fun and it get so serious and at the same time funny when both of us,the girls start giving ideas to this friend on how to tell someone his feeling.Haha,he likes a girl so much but is afraid to express it. And the funny thing was we studied in the same school, our class are just next to each other but  i dunno about it.Scolded him nicely for that.. lolx..and we keep on talking and talking endlessly. Crazzyh..and i just love sharing things with them and the way Jc will encourage and advice me. And she said something over and over again for so many times..that's is> i like to see the changes in you..At least you are better now and different. And i'm happy that you found Ruby as you best friend.Don't ever leave her.She is a very good friend and keep in touch with her when you enter university< Yeap,of coz i'll keep in touch with her and won't leave her. I'll suffer the most if that happen..She is the best one i have and will always be my Jaan.:D...And i'm so happy to have beautiful people around me as friends that give me hope to live my life. Love you guyzz...

Will you??

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Confess To you??? # speechless....... All i know is that i love you no matter what...

From My Heart...

Haiz,i feel like my life is miserable and i'm causing it.. People think i don't understand them well but they understand me. Yeap..i'm not denying that they don't understand me. They do. It's just that sometimes they don't get it. Whenever i say something, they misunderstand it and take that matter seriously. So,what you expect me to do?? It's really really  hard to control myself from doing what i always do in front of you. I keep telling myself.."people don't like what you are doing..So,why am i doing it again and again? Just control and be strong."I don't wanna lose you. So i'll step back a little bit if that's what you want and that's make you happy and don't give you any problem. Somehow i'm not asking for anything big. For a small matter you will shout at me. And the worst thing,only when i do that you don't like. Nevermind. I just wanna ask you for one think ryte now.>In all that situations,just for once,imagine that you're in my place. How you will feel if you are me and all those thing happened to you??

HuGs...

Okay..Hugs..Is it really important? Actually before i meet this particular girl,i just don't bother about hug.I mean i'm not the type that will hug anyone before saying goodbye,or when we meet someone,or to wish someone luck,or to comfort someone in a situation. She is the one who started it. And at the beginning i used to only give sideways hug...Haha..she knew what i exactly mean..But now..i really miss your hug.I can't hug you everyday anymore.That's so sad.We always start our day with a hug and end it with a hug to. Hug suddenly become a NEED for me. Especially YOURS piggyh. There is so many times you hug me whenever i need it. When i was so down with problems, when we fought,when i cried for something..Your arms is always open for me..Thank you so much coz it really mean a lot. It is such a beautiful feeling getting a hug from you.  

But,i just hate when i asked for a hug or kiss and you will be like this....

or like this.....

ish.......Hate that!!!

But it's okaay...I'll be like this.....

just because.....

And right now i just want this!!!!

And not forgetting this....Miss it So so Much...::(

That's all i can share my "Dil ki Baat" about  Hugs...

LoLXxxx....

Now you know why i need a tight hug from youh??!! Okaay...ryte now i'm off to bed ...And till now you owe me 7 days hug..:(...N i won't stop here..Tomorrow i shall continue to talk about HUGS!!! Till then...Nitez..Hugzz n Kisses.....Love Youh.....MuaXx..

After so long...

Hey guys...i went to my former school today..ACS..after almost 2 years...Lots of memories there.Met my friend and teachers..Thank God she wasn't there..Fuhh...A few teachers still recognise me and had chit chat with them.And the one don't recognise me, create a superb joke.."How's many A's Gal?? All Okaay?" Hey,i know i'm short and still look 15 instead of 20...hahaha...my school counselor that forgot me and created a joke where my bro and friends laughed endlessly..Gawd.. Actually went with bro to take his PMR result..He insisted me to follow.He even cried.So i can't say no...And he did miracle by getting a good result..haha...unbelievable!! Very very very happy for you :D..Keep doing well in your studies.So proud of you hippo.

Heart Whispers Something About You.......

Yes the truth is......
I'm no one and nothing without you....
I'm alone without you....
I miss you....
I love youh...
And...
I admit that my life is freaking bored without you.....
Got that piggy??!!!!!

NoOOooo.....:(

Ish..Just hate this time.After school and nothing to do. Friends are damn busy with their own life. It is so sad when my messages were replied late and less frequently.No more like before.
Days after days my messages changes like this:

hundreds of messages........to........

~100 messages.......to......
~80 messages........to....
~60 messages......to......
~40 messages.....to.....
~20 messages.....
Hopefully it won't become zero hero....


And from seconds to reply......becomes
5 minutes.......and.........
10 minutes....and....
20 minutes....and...
30 minutes......and....
40.........
50..........
An Hour......
And Hours.....Hopefully it won't turn into Days beb.....
.Of coz it won't! How busy i would be also,i'll text you...AND WAIT PATIENTLY FOR YOUR REPLY>>>> Well i dont wanna get scold again from you...."You knw how busy i'm at home aite..still you're asking n bla bla bla....."Tat'z really SCARRY N HURTING somehow....But,no worries...take your time...Mmie alwiz wait for you no matter what.....Remember that! But it's not anyone's fault.People get busy and i understand that.

You know wat?! I feel like having tea.So,after so long I'm gonna step into the kitchen to do tea for myself n family. I alwiz get a bad comment for my tea.So i'll try to do the best one today and hope they like it.Wootzzyy.....

happiness....

wootz..damn damn happy...Had lotz of fun at prom with love ones...Feel like crying towards the end but was controlling..I have image too kay..haha...But yea seriously i'm gonna miss all this sweet,memorable moment beb where we were still fighting over something till now..Truely speaking OUR FIGHTS WILL NEVER ENDS NO MATTER WHAT!! So,have fun to the max! Sleep over at your house and spending time with you the whole day.Just wish i could stop the time..So,the big question now is that"should i be happy for all the beautiful moments we had spend together OR should i be sad coz we might not have that moment again.But of coz i don't want that to happen.I just hope that you will hold my hand and guide me throughout my life.My only wish....

It's ProM!!!

Yoo...it's prom tonight guys.Wish could be at your house ryte now.Wanted to spend the whole day with you.After this,you gonna be busy with your music work and all.Dunno you would like to meet Mmie or not.But its okaay yaar. I got no idea where and when i gonna see you after this.And i don't dare to ask you that. You are busy with your life.I understand that.

Miss youh so badly..Wish could come early tomorrow to your house but i couldn't..:(

Something Precious...

Yeappy...soon i gotta start working on the second Love Book for her...143 Kahani's Between Us....Excited!!! Just love doing all this for the love one...Wait for it beb...This Blog surprise i'll reveal in that book too...Dont worry,you'll be the second wan to knw about it...after your bhai of coz..Ish...But he won't be reading all this...Hahaha....And lotz of stories waiting for youh.....Woots...

Happy Time...

Today..nothing special happen so i make the day special...You know what i did? Since morning took out all my Jaan's stuffs and was reading her love messages for me...Found her sorry letter..love you letter..her key chains..Lilo n Stich stamp..chocolate and ice-cream wrappers...movie and kl trip tickets and lotz of her stuff which is safely with me..Filled the Love Bird bottle with all the small love notes. I couldn't throw the bottle even it can't be use anymore.You bought it for me so that i will drink water...haha..And you went to buy it even you were really really sick..I still remember the day so i'm gonna keep the bottle forever with me.Anyway,the bottle got story aite..Cage and all that..Hope you still remember it...And you know what Jaan..The bottle itself is not enough for all the love notes..Lolx....Love all the stuffs yaar.. All my memories with you<3<3<3...I'll take good care of it Hamesha Jaan....

Love...Love..Love..

Let's enjoy the day with lots of love...Okaay as i said i'll blog about what i was thinking last nite..And the question that cross my mind was "How you know that you love a person so much??"As for me,my love is towards my friend..One and only..You know who you are...So here it goes...
You know you love someone so much when....
1)You are willing to do anything for his/her happiness.
2)You are willing to hear whateva they say even you get bored over it coz you don't know anything about what they are talking.
3)You will get upset easily if they scold or hurt you even it is a small matter.As for me,i'll start crying..hahaha...
4)You can't stay away from them longer and you NEED to keep in touch somehow.
5)When you wake up,you will think of that person till you close your eyes...Even i closed i'll still think about my darling coz she will disturb me in my dreamz also..kwang kwang kwang...
6)**You get jealous easily??*** well..for me depends with whom she is..For me,jealousy kills and can ruin a relationship..So better don't  get jealous..Sharing is Caring..
7)You will find thousand reasons just to spend a little time with that person<3. I Alwiz do that...
8)You will keep every single thing that she/he gave to you so that you will never ever forget the moment you guys spend together.
9)You will say sorry to that person even it is not your mistake sometimes just to maintain the relationship..And forgive as well.Nothing wrong in saying sorry..Forgive and Forget...
10)You will cry like hell if anything happen to that person..~happened to me and i will never ever forgive myself if anything had happen to her on that day..~
And the list is never ending for me..But,you will never know when you fall in love.It just happen.You have to recognize that person.Trust them and stand by his/her side no matter what happen..NEVER GIVE UP IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP AND KEEP YOUR BELIEVE IN IT! LoVe will be there with you FoReVeR....

Thinking...

Okaay..I'm not that sleepy but my eye hurting me...Gggrhhh...Hate this..So, I'm off to bed and i'll end up thinking bout something while looking at the ceiling,fan.window and so on.So maybe tomorrow i'll blog bout what i'll be thinking..Kay i'm so blur now and start my crapping already..So,i better go...NiteZzzz...

12.12.12

It's 12.12.12 tomorrow!!! A day to remember..Everyone are up to something today so that it will be a memorable one...So far,i got nothing in plan.Let's see how the day goes.Will there be anything exciting? Wait and Watch..

Movie time!!!!

Time for my favourite movie..Zindagi Na Milenge Dobara...have been watching it again and again without getting bored..Just love it coz it teach me a lot about life..To be happy..not to give up..to enjoy life to the max and so many more...and the most important one..not to leave your friends no matter what obstacles came through that try to break your friendship apart.Trust me,i'll never give up on our relationship.That's what i learnt from the movie.So guys,keep living your life happily...it's exciting!

Wish Come True...

Hoho..today was really a scary day.Went for my eye operation.It wasn't a major one,but i was freaking scared for it.Went with mum and was really really hoping for another person to be with me at that time.Went to clinic and they ask me to come back after lunchtime coz a lot of patients.So went shopping with mum and lunch.Was eating at restaurant when saw her walking passing by the restaurant.Was thinking how to call her when my mum called her name and she turned.Wootz..i got excited to see her.She came to buy her guitar nearby.Talked to her and hugged her tight.Thats the only thing i need.And she said was just coming to see me.And thats a wish came true for me. Love youh so much piggyh and don't forget you said you will play for me guitar when i come to your house. I'll be waiting Jaan...MuaXx...Piglet..you alwiz do unbelieveable thing..

!@#$%$^&*

Mood off today... Fought with dad till both of us are not talking with each other. Wat can i do? It wasn't my fault.Can't people just accept their mistake and stop blaming others.Hate that..Whatever happen i will try to manage myself and stop depending on others.And please stop nagging me all the time...Gawd...I can't bare this anymore....

A Day Out...:)

Wootz...afta so long was out with my Jaan n papz...At last..It was such a lovely day.Went for a book fair.And bought lotz n lotz of storybooks.It has been ages since i read a good novel.Get so busy with life till i forgot about storybooks.And I'm back with it now.Went in the morning and was walking and walking grabbing books that attract me.Both of them was like !@#$%^&* . Me and reading all that. I love it kay.Especially mystery and love stories.And yes guys..I'll look at the cover and if it look nice,i'll grab it.And yes my dear,when i look at the title,i'll think of you and buy it.My Piggy,you are alwiz in my mind and heart kay.Had fun and was damn tired.Had my 9 storybooks.yeay....And goin back time we were talking and joking all the time.Funniest moment for me..Papz's sis threw sweet wrapper out of the car window and i was like"pls..dun let Bee to see that". Unfortunately,she saw n was starring at it.I know she just don't like that.Gonna open my mouth to say.. chill2..whan out of a sudden that wrapper flew back into the car to me.And i took it and put it inside my pocket and told jaan..."its okay,i'll go back and throw it"..She burst out laughing and thatz the biggest joke ever.I learn from you ny yaar..I know you just hate that to the max..And papz said.."Mmie mmie you have to keep it as a rememberance"...haha..Lolx..Then with chamber joke and all..Gawd..Then then went to Bee's house.Didn't go there for quite some time coz was busy with exam and all. Miss my uncle,aunty,n bros so much.Not forgetting aunty's cooking.She kept durian ice-cream for me.That is my favourite and love it so so much.And her Kaseri too.Haha..she is just fantastic in cooking Love her cooking so much as i love to eat eat and eat.=D.Then was talking with Jaan after so damn long.Feels Great!!!!!Went to pasar malam with them.Owh,my buff gal's leg was hurting..so sad..Apply something and sleep kay...Nitez guyz....

Always..=D

Ending of school life..

At last I'm having freedom.Done with exam n it wasn't that easy.And the most scaring thing is..I'm not gonna get a good result..Not this time yaar. Just wanna get local Uni. Tatz all i want.Anyway,lets hope for the best. I tried my level best.It's not my fault if i'm unable to do it even after trying aite. And and and..tatz the end..i learn really a lot in my form 6 life.. It is a complete change of my life. I learn more how to enjoy life and not study study study all the time like before and at the end gain nothing.Dissapointment in life is the reason. So at the end.. NOW i'm happy with myself. I'm so happy till i will get so emo when we were nearing to end school life. I dont wanna be away from someone who have tought me so much. Who make me smile,laugh and cry. Gawd i dont cry that much before man!! So i can say that..in form 6,i found who i really wanted before.Someone who will be with me all the time no matter what happen. So i don't regret at all for doing form 6 coz i met my Jaan here.I have never meet someone like her before. Unbelieveable that i can be so damn close to her. I dont even remember how it all started as i was so quiet and don't mingle..Ryte?? Of coz       you know me more than myself. I just cant live without you a second and thinking about this i'll start crying.I love youh a lot kay and just hope that you wont leave me and go like all the others.I just cant live without u..GOT THAT??!!! No more school after this and i wont be able to see you everyday.Hate that jaan!! You are really really special in my life kay. I might not be a very good friend coz i really hurt you a lot..not once ..not twice but so many many times. But i love youh no matter what happened kay.. You have given me so much to remember.I cant describe everything here.I'm so sorry to hurt you n thank you so much for being the best one in my life.I'll be with you alwiz. Hamesha.Not forgetting Papz.Such a lovely friend. Never imagine she gonna be close to me like this before.I dont know how i would have survive without both of you.. You guys are really really crazzy. And this is the toughest time of my life. Without you guys with me all the time.And also all the others who were with me..even relationship doesn't go as i wanted but still that's fate. I couldn't help it.It will be better if you were together with us coz i feel guilty for what happened. But forget it and lets move on. Enjoyed my last day a lot. Unforgettable.. And now time to say good bye to the school that i hate the most at first before being with you guys. I'm gonna miss our days here n all the jokes and fun and SERIOUS SITUATION we had together... Hahax. Luv youh... MuaX

Getting started...

Okaay..here it goes..At last i got my own blog...inspired from somewan i love to the max..Crack my head n of coz my bro's head for this. I'm not that good at all this stuff so thnx to him. Hopefully i can share about what goes on in my life here and you guys have fun reading it...